Poetry · Chapter
A Prayer: When I Look Back Upon My Life Nigh Spent explained
The speaker reflects on a life nearly spent, repenting more for follies and shortcomings in love than for sins, and prays to the Father not to be left alone but to be taken back and made a child again.
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The speaker reflects on a life nearly spent, repenting more for follies and shortcomings in love than for sins, and prays to the Father not to be left alone but to be taken back and made a child again.
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Narrative arc
Story tension across the book — this chapter sits in Falling action.
- Setup
- Escalation
- Breaking point
- Aftermath
- Closing
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- Divine Fatherhood
The speaker directly addresses God as 'Father' and 'Lord,' pleading to be taken back and remade as a child.
- Childhood and Innocence
The prayer culminates in a desire to be made a child again, symbolizing a return to innocence and dependence on God.
Characters to notice
Key passages
“I more of follies than of sins repent, Less for offence than Love’s shortcomings moan.”
I regret my foolishness more than my sins, and I grieve more for my failures in love than for any specific wrongdoing.
The speaker distinguishes between folly and sin, emphasizing that the deepest regret is for lacking love.
“With self, O Father, leave me not alone— Leave not with the beguiler the beguiled;”
Father, do not abandon me to my own self-deception; do not leave me, who am deceived, alone with the deceiver.
The speaker pleads for divine companionship, fearing the isolation of being left to one's own misguided self.
“Besmirched and ragged, Lord, take back thine own: A fool I bring thee to be made a child.”
Dirty and worn, Lord, reclaim me as your own: I come to you as a fool, asking to be remade into a child.
The speaker acknowledges their unworthiness and offers themselves humbly, seeking transformation and renewal.
